The purpose of this blog is to lay bare all those random thoughts that clog up my brain...a range of thoughts varying from academics to my social life to the state of rural India and so on...
Yesterday I had a 6.002 test. I expected it to be very difficult too, but then as I started doing the problems, things seemed to be working out pretty well...till i reached the last question, which blew me off completely. Unfortunately, I have a very competitive mind set, but I don't compete with others. I compete with myself. And this test definitely blew my confidence away. It is a different feeling to know the answers and not do them, because of the lack of time and to not know what the heck is going on in that problem even if you have an hour left...and I personally detest the latter kind. Worse still, when I get back to my dorm room and realise..."Darn, I should have tried 'that' approach. It works!"
A talkative person as I am, I really wanted to talk to someone to relieve myself of the stress. I find myself surrounded by people who were more desperate than I was. My IM lists looked dismally empty (they are filled when I have no time to talk to people). I tried calling my family but everybody just decided to be busy. In despair, I looked up to my Problem sets in the other classes for comfort...and guess what, it worked. Just that it was a little over 4:30 am in the morning when I finished it. I am still not sure if I was happy or sad when I was done.
I woke up this morning to realise that I slept through two classes, a feeling I hate specially when I plan to attend those. My first afternoon class decided to give the test grades back (a test we took a week and half before, of which I remembered nothing at all). With mixed feelings I go to my second class and guess what, they decide to hand another test back.
In the evening, I had dinner with an alumni, class of '70. She was awesome. I will describe more about the conversation in my next blog, it deserved its own special place.
Later in the night, I watched the movie, Before the Rains, with literally no idea of what it was about. I was hoping till the end that Sajani should be alive. She was dead and things never sorted out. I guess I was not prepared for such a close representation of life when I watch a movie. I was weeping when my room mate came back after watching Dark Night in LSC. And she went, "You and that thing (referring to my laptop), you guys need to be separated at times!"
And that was the end of the day, I fell asleep without realising it.
A talkative person as I am, I really wanted to talk to someone to relieve myself of the stress. I find myself surrounded by people who were more desperate than I was. My IM lists looked dismally empty (they are filled when I have no time to talk to people). I tried calling my family but everybody just decided to be busy. In despair, I looked up to my Problem sets in the other classes for comfort...and guess what, it worked. Just that it was a little over 4:30 am in the morning when I finished it. I am still not sure if I was happy or sad when I was done.
I woke up this morning to realise that I slept through two classes, a feeling I hate specially when I plan to attend those. My first afternoon class decided to give the test grades back (a test we took a week and half before, of which I remembered nothing at all). With mixed feelings I go to my second class and guess what, they decide to hand another test back.
In the evening, I had dinner with an alumni, class of '70. She was awesome. I will describe more about the conversation in my next blog, it deserved its own special place.
Later in the night, I watched the movie, Before the Rains, with literally no idea of what it was about. I was hoping till the end that Sajani should be alive. She was dead and things never sorted out. I guess I was not prepared for such a close representation of life when I watch a movie. I was weeping when my room mate came back after watching Dark Night in LSC. And she went, "You and that thing (referring to my laptop), you guys need to be separated at times!"
And that was the end of the day, I fell asleep without realising it.
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